Hey all (or one. There’s only one person who reads this every day. I’m not sure who it is, but I do have a hunch.) (sometimes knowing that makes it harder to be as honest as I’ve promised myself to be on here).
I apologize for not blogging for a while. I plan on fixing that now that I’m back in school and regaining my schedule.
But no promises.
Because I’m awful that this.
I just wanted to state before bed, for the world to know, that I’m taking some time to figure out what I want.
At least, that’s what I tell people.
It’s mostly true.
In reality. I have a pretty good idea of what I want.
(In regards to a relationship, in case you didn’t know).
There are two boys I care about very much.
That’s what I’m actually torn between.
I don’t think it actually matters.
Because they’re both very far away,
I don’t think the one would be interested if I brought it up,
and my contact with the other is too sporadic for it to be an issue.
I think I’ve made a decision.
But. Distance is too much of an issue for it to matter.
So I keep it to myself.
I’ve made a decision though in another aspect of people in my life.
Sean and I have been talking more, which is fantastic.
I can’t even describe how happy it makes me to have him back in my life.
And, because of this, I’ve promised myself to make sure he knows how much he means to me,
and be the best friend I can possibly be to him, regardless of the distance between us,
for the rest of, well, forever.
(I hate that, even though I knew he was important to me, I didn’t realize how much until we didn’t talk for a while. I feel like I was taking granted of him before, which is an awful thing to do to someone you care about. I’m fixing this.)
In conclusion, I have a choir retreat tomorrow so I need to get to bed.
Peace, Love, and Teleportation,